I wrote an apology to my mother last night. I wanted to share it with you all:
As a person moves through life, a wake is emitted from her being and mingles with the energy of life. Like a canoe through water, also life causes a pertruberance[sp] ahead of itself, forward through time, from the eternal present.
Lives like ours are weighty with tragedies and dutied with toils. I've looked back on many things with regret, wondering why it seemed I was the devil's playground. But I have always been able to remember you, your life, your central characters in your life's tragedy; You don't have someone like that, do you?
I feel sorrow for you; I want to believe that the conditions you permit endure are for the best.
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For anyone, his or her soul exists for the sole purpose of self-expressing; that and enabling conditions for the possibility of more self-expressing. Everyone has their own plan for doing this, and as our souls are beyond time, and connected and united in conscioussness, and so in agreement, everyone's individual plans are in agreement.
This accumulates to one plan per person, but per the soul's nature, one goal!
This is where I draw my strength of belief in you. You know what you're doing, and because your guide and my guide are Allies, I can rest assured that You will take care of me as I will take care of you.
Mother it would please me to someday have you believe me when I tell you, i will take care of you, forever.